Ileana

~written by Ileana Villahermosa
In Memory of her son, Felipe A. Pagan
November 20, 1973 - April 13, 1999
Orlando, Florida

Died in a motorcycle accident on April13th, 1999.
He was at the moment of the accident going to meet with his study group.

A Place

I've just met a group of friends
We all seem to feel the same
We are all part of a place
Where we share each others pain

In this place we're all alone
No one wants ever to go
It is filled by those who lost
At least a daughter or son
A child that will forever
No longer be here with us

This place is not really far
It is here in our hearts
No one believes it exist
Others think is just a myth!!

Is a place where our old friends
Seems to no longer ask
About the kids we once had
Like if they don't say a word
It will no longer hurt
They are scare, they don't want
Ever to walk our path

We know no one understands
Unless they've been there once
Once you've enter to this place
There's no way you'll be the same

It is in this place that we keep
All the dreams that we once had
All of our hopes and our past
The memories of our child

It is in this place
Where we've learn
That the pain will not be less
Whether we are a sleep or awake
That we were betrayed by fate
It is in there where we pray
And ask for that great reward

Dear God, please find the way
We'll be patient and we'll wait
For that clear sunny day
When we no longer feel pain

We all want the same reward
See our child and have them back
Let them come and take our hand
Let them take us to your land
Let us never be apart

~written by Ileana Villahermosa
In Memory of her son, Felipe A. Pagan
November 20, 1973 - April 13, 1999
Orlando, Florida

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My Sweet Delight

No matter what I do
I feel the pain
Whether is a sunny
Or rainy day

Ever since your gone
To the heaven above
I miss so much
Your face, your smile
Your love that was my life

He was so smart and bright
He'll make your day
A sweet delight
Without him there's no life

I couldn't see your eyes
But boy!!!! I saw the smile
The day you died
You surely saw the light

There's something you should know
When I was young
I had a crazy thought.....
That love was only
For the lucky and the strong

Until that day,
That you were born
I realized, that I have given life
To the most precious son alive

I understood right then and there
The power of the light
It took me all this time
To really understand
That you were his not mine

Oh God!!!!!!
How much a mother
Loves her child!!!!

I know that I will cry
Until the day I die
Don't ask me why
I miss his smile

He was my son, my life
He was my sweet delight!!!!

~written by Ileana Villahermosa
In Memory of her son, Felipe A. Pagan
November 20, 1973 - April 13, 1999
Orlando, Florida

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Some Days When I'm Alone

Some days
When I'm alone
I fear !!!!
Can't hold my tears

If I go out I hear the sounds
Of families around

It makes me sad
Cause I think back
When I had you
Here in my arms

I feel the wind
Blow in my cheeks
And all I think....
My darling son
Has given me a kiss

I hold my fear
I hold my tears
And I think back..
All I could whisper
In your ears was

"Don't worry dear,
Your Mami is here
So please don't fear.
No more pain
Will come your way.
I will get old,
but you my love
Forever will be young".

~written by Ileana Villahermosa
In Memory of her son, Felipe A. Pagan
November 20, 1973 - April 13, 1999
Orlando, Florida

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The Club

I am a lucky member
Of one special club
We were selected at random
Not knowing it will come

Each one of us as members
Have this unique rare bond
We all have special angels
There in the sky above

This bond is.... Oh, so special
That everyday we know
What each one of the members
Is suffering alone

No words are necessary
No cry we need to hear
We fill each others pain
Whether we are far or near

We all know that our angels
Are happy and at peace
We just would like to see them
And at night...sing a lullaby
Until they go to sleep

We all wish we could tell them
How much they mean to us
And while they were listening
Give them all a huge big hug

Oh God! please let me have
One day a big reward
I know that you can hear me
You know the pain I have

Let me one day if you can
Have my angel in my arms

Let me kiss him
Long and hard!!!!!
Let me see his face
At last!!!!!!!
Let me have him in my arms
Let us never be apart

~written by Ileana Villahermosa
In Memory of her son, Felipe A. Pagan
November 20, 1973 - April 13, 1999
Orlando, Florida

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Two, Not One

My dear friends
My grieving has no end
I know my tears give you fear
I'm sorry I'm this way

My darling son
That I adore
Took here on earth
His final breath

From this day on
Here in my home
One will be missing
One will be gone

Remember back,
when we all laugh?

Now all I want
Is if you can
Sharewith me
My past, my memories Of Him!!!!

That's all I ask
That's all I got

For I will never
Forget once!!!!
That I had two
Not One

Two darling sons
Two handsome ones

Now that one's gone
One that for ever
Will be loved
One that no longer
Will come home

I need your strength
I need your prayers
I need you friend
To help me share
That I had Two, Not one

~written by Ileana Villahermosa
In Memory of her son, Felipe A. Pagan
November 20, 1973 - April 13, 1999
Orlando, Florida

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